It's been an embarrassingly long time since I've posted. So long that I actually considered just never posting again. I started to write a blog post about 12 million different times, but the words just never seemed to fit together like I wanted, so I would get frustrated and give up. The truth is, creating is absolutely terrifying. Whether you're creating a blog post, or a poem, or a painting, or a song, it's absolutely terrifying to put yourself out there.
I've been thinking about this for a few weeks. I have always been afraid of judgement and vulnerability. I have this constant desire for people to like me. This usually results in me being quiet when I feel like I should speak up, or not creating a drawing because my lines might not be perfect, or not publishing my words because maybe it could be said better by someone else.
I was reminded of this video the other day that was posted by Hank Green of the vlogbrothers:
My challenge for you and for me is to push through the fear. To create and love and dream and live as only you can. Whether you think so or not, you change this world every day that you're alive. Let's change it for the better. Let's live a story that shows love and light and courage to others around us. Let's continue creating despite the fear, despite the voices that tell us we aren't enough. I think we owe it to ourselves and to those around us to be real. Don't you?
There's a quote by Donald Miller (yes, I realize my last post was about Don Miller. No, I don't apologize for it.) from his new book, Scary Close, that says: "Sometimes the story we're telling the world isn't half as endearing as the one that lives inside us."
So what story are you telling? Does it line up with who you really are? If it doesn't, I hope you find the courage to rewrite your story.