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writer, youtuber, and podcaster based in new york city.

i love reading, writing, travel, blurry photos, and anything that makes me feel something.

 

you can't run

you can't run

You can't run from your problems, your pain, your self. Like Hemingway said, "you can't get away from yourself by moving from one place to another."

I told myself it wasn't true; that I didn't want to move to escape my problems, I wanted to move because moving would be a fun adventure. I did secretly hope Hemingway was wrong though. I hoped a new, big city would save me. Now I'm left picking up the pieces of a broken heart because surprise, Hemingway was right. 

When we came to New York, I thought it'd be different, I thought I would be different. I believe a place can be just as much of a dream or a calling as a job can, and New York had been my dream since I was thirteen. I thought I never felt at home anywhere because maybe my home was thousands of miles away. But now I'm here and I still don't feel at home and I think it's because I don't feel like home. 

Loving yourself, accepting yourself fully and honestly, is the most important lesson any of us will have to learn. I thought maybe the place you live was the answer, and maybe it is a little, but where you are won't make a difference if you can't smile at your reflection.

I don't know how to tell you how to love yourself. I'm only just beginning to try to learn myself, but I know it starts with grace. I know it starts with kindness. I know it starts with speaking kind words to and about yourself.

I heard someone say once that they've turned the golden rule around: "do to yourself as you would have done to others." I think for many of us, it's easy to see our friends through a lens of grace and love and forgiveness. Try and turn that lens on yourself.  

from an empire state of mind to an empire state of reality

from an empire state of mind to an empire state of reality

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